I'm looking for the sunshine after the rain

I'm looking for the sunshine after the rain
I'm searching for the only thing I knew
I'm digging to find myself in you
On my knees
In the dirt
Only to find that you were right beside me
all along.
I reach for you with my muddy paws
With pools of sweat gathering at my chin.
Drip.
Running down my forehead, into my eyes
where it marries my tears.

As I hug you I smear brown on your white robe
My hair drips salt into yours
I am a mess, but you don't care.
You hug me anyways.