prayer

my prayer life sucks. it's not even that i deliberately decide not to pray but that i'm not really thinking about it. i forget to talk to God, I forget the power of prayer. Why? Maybe..well maybe because i've never directly, whole heartedly given credit to God when my prayers are answered. a part of me thinks that it was my doing, that somehow i was powerful, proactive enough (ha!) to make things come about the way i wanted. but..prayers aren't about getting what you want. it's presenting your requests to God in faith that He will do what He wants accordingly. it's asking for God's will to be done. it's to listen to what HE has to say instead of listening to yourself, the voice that often speaks lies, all day.

"If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land."

2 Chronicles 7:14

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Desire


this is my desire
to honor you
is it really?
Lord with all my heart
i worship you
am i really?
my tongue speaks a word
but my heart speaks another.
selfishness, envy, lust
Desire.

why do I desire another when It says
that you are enough.
another this, another that.
when is it enough?
to fill this insatiable hole called
Desire.

i do desire you, i do.
but
i am a fool.